This American’s viewpoint from Prague

I am an American living in Europe this summer. I do have a posting-in-progress that slides down the sugary chute of the delights of Prague. How wonderful it is to not be in a hurry to take in everything she has to offer: wide variety of ornate architecture, Charles Bridge, Prague Castle, St Vitas’ Cathedral juxtaposed with Gehry’s Dancing House and the magical art installations of David Cerny The Rotating Kafka Head is my favorite.

I would be remiss. Yes, I am thoroughly enjoying myself and discovered, explored more than ever. There are two things that happened during my time here and a side trip to Germany that rattled me and are worthy of introduction, introspection and discussion.

The first was on a Prague overview tour. An extremely knowledgeable guide named Marcus stopped the group and pointed to the sidewalk stones and a small plaque dropped in the pavement. He brought our attention to my first exposure to “Stolperstein” and the Stolperstein project. This plaque is the size of a small cobblestone and was engraved.. “Heir wohnt…”, which is German for “Here lived”. The balance of the passage was a woman’s name, birthdate, the day she was taken from her home by the Gestapo (The Nazi brand of Secret State Police), where she was interned and when she died. Yes, this was a commemorative stone to a Holocaust victim. It does cause you to pause. It is a very simple, yet powerful reminder of the atrocities of the Nazi Regime. It is her remembrance: her tombstone, her memorial. It is about her.  

This project spearheaded by German artist, Gunter Demnig was started in 1996. The Stolperstein, or stumbling stones memorializes people who were persecuted by the Nazis between 1933 to 1945: Jews, Roma, Political dissidents, homosexuals, anyone deemed “asocial”.

Since then, I have seen several additional Stolpersteine in Prague, Germany and Salzburg, Austria. I am compelled to stop, read each one and say a short prayer to honor them. You wonder who they were, how they felt and how terrified they must have been. It a pervasive memorial, you never know when you are going to find one, or stumble up.. it will disrupt your train of thought and make you wonder about man’s inhumanity toward man, the premise of hatred and the perishable nature of life. It’s a humbling experience and a very timely one.

Instance 2 was on the surreal side. I was touring southern Germany and Salzburg last weekend with my daughter. We did the obligatory castle tours, hiked in the mountains and ate the most incredible Schnitzel with potatoes!  Last Sunday morning, we woke to news of the march in Charlottesville and the death of a young woman, Heather Heyer. The frightening part of this was the images on TV.. were of Americans holding Nazi flags and giving the Heil salute. The commentary was in German and it was not flattering. We looked at each other in complete disbelief. Is this America? This can’t be true. We quickly started to look for US news outlets, CNN and the BBC for clarity. It was true. This was America.

From my offshore view, I am afraid. Not by living in a foreign country, not about influx of middle eastern refugees; I am afraid of America. We are watching you unravel. This is not who we are. We are becoming who my father and his generation fought to defeat. Overt Nazi symbols in today’s America? Hate is now protected speech? No! This is not right, this is not good.  Take a careful look, America is becoming the monster.

I send my condolences to the family of Heather Heyer. I did not know her, as I never knew the people commemorated with the Stolpersteine I’ve seen; yet they are strangely intertwined. It is tragedy.

I beg you, America not to be silent. I beg you, America to resist. I am.

A very Foo Fighters Birthday

 I’m learning to walk again! Thank you, Dave Grohl..

Tomorrow I’ll be coming to the end of another path around the sun. As with most women of a certain age, I have a love-hate relationship with my birthday; somehow this one is just a little special. Last year was a significant milestone. I spent it as a newly laid off corporate casualty and owning a fabulous Eames Lounge Chair that I had custom made for the big occasion (note: I bought this chair before I learned of my pending unemployment. It was non-refundable). Sucks to be me. It was a bittersweet day culminated in a huge slice of Bahama Breeze’s fresh Key Lime Pie and a spectacular sunset over the Tampa Bay causeway. Acutally… it doesn’t suck to be me.. Happy Birthday, girl…

This year I’m so far removed from Florida, my bodacious chair and corporate America, celebrating with my beautiful daughter while I continue my nomad journey in Prague. You see, this year has been one of those amazing transition years that initially appeared to be a calamitous chute, when in fact it was a golden ladder in disguise… And how does Dave Grohl play into this?

I love this song.. Walk.. Foo Fighters.. seems to be perfectly anthemic and necessary to for anyone that is trying to get their footing again or maybe find it in the first place. It’s about discovery, courage and chutzpah. (I invite you to add it to your “SJGR” Playlist). I play this song non-stop. It motivates me. It inspires me. It makes me want to get up when I think I can’t anymore.  This year, I have been determined not to have me or my life defined by negativity, past events or people. I wanted this chapter of my life to start from a position of strength, not dread.  Perhaps I have gone to extraordinary lengths to clean out the bad juju, yet it seems to be my perfect remedy.  Learning to Walk again..

My new nomad life has stretched my creativity, knocked down my reservations and paved the way to a whole new sense of discovery. I’ve found it enlightening to be physically out of my normal environment, forced to navigate a new city, currency, language, measurement system (and btw- just why isn’t the US using the metric system?), transit system and literally maintain balance on cobblestone sidewalks. You need to think, not react. It can be daunting and unforgiving. There is also a huge sense of accomplishment when you can solo a subway, make change quickly and do currency conversions unassisted (thank you, Google.. I’ve got this one). It’s like I’m playing the “Amazing Race” against myself and some days you win, some days.. well, not so much, but still learning to walk again… You can’t run, if you can’t walk.

This year has taught me that I am still continually learning. I’m learning to have patience with myself. I’m learning to be less busy and more mindful. I’m learning to be attuned to my environment. I’m learning to love me for who I am now. Quite a bit for one year, don’t you think?

It’s my birthday. I’m walking upright and starting a whole new lap around the sun. I can’t wait to see what is in store.


Dave, take us out… Walk- Foo Fighters